Sorry, guys, if there are any of you out there that happen upon this post. I made the title straightforward so you can consider yourself warned.
I've never given much stock to PMS. Mainly, I took offense and immediately disliked any person, male or female, who blamed anything on it. Males because it's just offensive and I'm partially a feminist. Females because it seemed like blaming something because you're female. And like I said, I'm part feminist.
I'm not sure I've blogged this before, but I know I've thought it hundreds of times. I think everyone needs counseling, pschiatric help, a therapist, perhaps a life coach, whatever you want to call it. We all have problems and we all need help. I started wondering recently if the times when I feel the most like I myself could benefit from some sort of therapy coincide when I am also experiencing PMS. If any of my calendar keeping episodes of the past had ever worked out, I'd consider keeping track. But I tried to keep track of headaches and if they were associated with what I'd eaten or done, among other things. The longest this lasts is half a day. So, it doesn't look promising that I'll ever figure this out.
But... I do wish I could go back in time and monitor crazy things I've done in my life or super insecure moments of not only my adolescence, but my adulthood, and see if I was PMSing then as well. For instance, there was a time in 10th grade when Jed and I were in a fight (he and I had "gone out" but weren't currently) when he said something along the lines of, "if you want me to leave you alone, I will" and I said something like, "yeah, whatever" and we didn't speak for a year. I for sure don't know what that was all about, or why I wanted him out of my life for a year. But I know a year later I was desperate to get him back. Looking back, I'd very much like to blame that on PMS.